I gave birth to a most beautiful baby boy...

.... 33 years ago today.

My most difficult birth of my three biological children.

Natural, but with some complications. Painful, but with a purpose. Kind of like life can be.

This is what we Moms do when we can’t hug or call or text or bake a special cake for or celebrate with our child. We share photos and memories and just want to recognize this day. This oh, so momentous and joyous day when our beloved child took their first breath and the world welcomed their arrival. All so lovely and pure.

Garrett always thought it was so cool to share his special day, May 24th, with both Bob Dylan and his sweet Grams. One a poetic, musical genius; the other a woman who exuded unconditional Love. Quite fitting, I think.

And he marveled, when he turned 29, that I had him when I was 29. He’ll forever and always be 29. Happy Birthday, my dear son. My Love is eternal. My Hope is in Heaven. How I wish I could kiss your cheek, once again. Until... ❤️🙏

May is Mental Health Month...

For those of us who have a loved one who’s struggled with mental health issues or perhaps you personally battle some form on the spectrum of mental illness; anxiety, depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, OCD, among others; we don’t need a reminder. It’s not a month, it’s Every. Day.

In saying that, however, I’m very thankful for the effort by many organizations and nonprofits to bring awareness to this illness that currently affects 1 in 5 adults in just our nation alone.

This illness that no one asks for just like no one asks for cancer or diabetes. This illness that can bring a stigma and silent shame. This illness that claimed my son’s life.

Like most of us, we don’t give a rip about something until it “rips” you or someone you love apart.

When Garrett was alive, I couldn’t speak freely nor publicly about his condition; that was his private, personal story. But, now I can and I will. About his journey. About his music. About his Life. With Love. With Hope.

My blog is titled, “Broken, but beautiful ”,  lyrics taken from one of his songs, Sunshine Maker.

“I see the world broken, but beautiful...”

My son. So broken at times, but oh, so very beautiful. 💔

My Labor of Love

Garrett's Bandcamp site I've been working on for nearly two years. Somehow I feel compelled to compile and share the beautiful music that my son created while here on this earth. Though mostly in raw demo form, they still convey his passion for God, Life and people. I will continue to add to the site as I discover more. Garrett's beautiful words, melodies and Spirit live on in each song; reflecting his heart and Hope.

https://garrettmiller.bandcamp.com